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I'm in the process of evolving. Somewhere along the span of my life i realized I didn't feel human. I didn't feel better than or less than a human. I just didn't feel real. I felt mechanical. Or alien. Its a common theme in my music. I have dreams about it. But I am finally connecting with friends and fans on a level that makes me feel more human than I ever felt possible. I speak and they listen. And vice versa. But I still feel forced to decide between music and normal life. So it's kinda like an inter monologue.
lyrics
I just recently lost touch with the man I thought I was/Mechanical Anakin anarchist just missing love/Huffing the fumes of unity/Ruin the new impunity/Rude as these fucking nerds/I suffer cause its new to me/Now who want a nightmare/Right when I fight another demon I was dreaming even I wasn't right there/Yeah I come in colors so vivid even my summer was tinted 50% mother fucker repent/On any given weekday/Making the weak pay/They let me speak cause even the meek pray/Deep between the lines/They don't need to be defined/Decency is even leaving I don't need to make it mine/And I don't believe in blurring em/Alcohol slurring em/And I recall the current state of real is preferring em/It's permanent pain in the late cretaceous/It's the terms you make when you fake creations
Now why would I wanna decide/Between my life and my rhymes/I find it difficult cause this is all of mine/Climb every single ladder stabbing swagger in the back/Maniac without a weapon and I'm never saving rap/So relax if it's a passion/Ash in the past like a cigarette/Better yet find something else to sweat/Rest assured that this music is yours/And you can use it moving forward while your crumbling doors/And while you're mumbling something about the revolution coming/Just for the hell of it I'll relish embellishment/But the fellowship lies while your fellows spit lies/Kiss the skies with your devilish eyes/Now what do you think that you need this for/Give it back to the basic carnivores/Cause everything you fake is everything I can't afford/Cause I'm more than a man/More than an animal/More than an immortal formidable human I'm incompatible/With the world I walk in/A portable coffin/Caught in the middle of affordable lock in/Stacked up in the riddles of the kill that I'm stalking/No reality I shouldn't be talking/But always I'll be walking the provocative thin line/Evocative biography I'll pirate the design/And I'll try and unwind in a faster way/Found nothing but answers I cast away
Nobody ever knows that the pain I'm feeling isn't real/It's made from the message left in cow shit/Now how should I pronounce it/Didn't mean synonym was my name/But my shame is etched in four letters/Better off I'll soar better/is it Aayu/Double A-Y-U/Another apathetic youth unit choosing to try you/Didn't see the entropy/It should have been gone with the needle out my heart/I feed a little feeling peeling off my arm/It's caustic and calloused/But i've lost the balance/It's only a cost so i'm coughing up a challenge/Man I'm on a mission/Wishing I'm reconditioned reprogrammed reactivated/It's how the facts are stated/Maybe I'm a little too old/A little too brittle to just let it unfold/For an empathetic man I'm more cynical than most/Or maybe I cant stand what I hold so close
UK rapper and composer Oscar reconnects with his youth on a sleek, diaristic LP influenced by ’90s hip-hop and '00s R&B. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 21, 2024